If only i could comprehend

[ Me ]
My name is patrick, I lead a somewhat interesting life, if you feel the need to know about me, feel free to read my messages and comment. Even if i don't know you post anyways.

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I said stop it...Hey! stop pointing! Thats rude! Didn't your mother teach you any manners?

[[STUFFS]]
*TheStrokes
TheWeakerthans*
*TheMarsVolta
MotionCitySoundtrack*
*DONOTCLICKHERE
SomeCoolGames*
*BitterfilmsComicstrips

[[PEOPLES]]
*Laura
Lauras LJ*
*Lauren
Laurens LJ*
*Jill
Megan*
*Caitlin
Kyle*
*My Live Journal

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" say the right things but act the wrong way I like it right here but I cannot stay I watch the TV; forget what I'm told Well, I am too young, and they are too old Oh, man, can't you see I'm nervous, so please Pretend to be nice, so I can be mean I miss the last bus, we take the next train I try but you see, it's hard to explain "

Sunday, May 30, 2004

Its almost 1:00am. I don't want to sleep. I thought about it then said to myself "No."
I feel unusually energetic for such an early time of day, probably because I didn't do anything tonight, Oh well. I could have gone to someone's house but I was a jerk and didn't I could have hung out with a bunch of friends and probably had a good time. But I felt like being an ass and I was too lazy to go way out there. Sorry guys, you all say I never hang out with you guys anymore and I finally realized that your right. I'm a prick. I try and hang out with you as much as I can but its hard when you have two groups of friends and a girlfriend that goes to another school.
Staying home and not doing anything wasn't so bad. I read some TKM and listened to a bunch of cds I found in Wills room. Blur is a really good band. I also was thinking. I'm too nice to people, I try to please everyone and it ends up blowing up in my face. I try and hang out with one group of people and the other says I'm ditching them, I do the other and I feel like I'm missing out on something. I also have a habit of not saying no, for fear that I might make someone mad. Or is it that I try and get everyone to like me so I try to be nice to everyone, that makes me feel so fake. Its like I'm hiding my real personality to everyone. But really I'm not. This is who I am. I remember in grade 8 I was so desperate to get matt Jeff Keith and them to like me that I actually tried to act different so they would like me. Turns out it was one of the best decisions of my life. If I didn't do that I never would have met all my stone park friends. Since then I've started to act myself. And it sometimes gets on peoples nerves, when really I'm just being me. Maybe I'm overly tired. Or maybe I just think better at 1 in the morning. I'm not sure But I just rambled on and I'm not quite sure what I said. But I think my point was. If I ever piss you off or ditch you to hang out with someone else, no hard feelings I'm just tired of being the nice guy who's always trying to please everyone. I'm still me don't worry. I haven't changed. Just realized things. Yeah I need some sleep I have to get up in less than 8 hours, but I doubt I'll get that much sleep. I don't really feel like it. I got my hair cut and its lookin good. And I get confirmed tomorrow. Kawabunga dude!.
Bye
me @ 12:54 AM